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Truth, Evil and the Sun

When we reached Gopeshwar that night, Gana seemed speechless. But Neel looked at him with satisfaction giving an expression like then he has seen.

We sat around fire, while waiting for the food to arrive. Open your ears said Neel and he began speaking like reciting an over practised hymn. The men in the east, he said, are trees; those in the south are flocks of animals; those in the west are wild plants. And those in the north like ourselves, who cried out while they ate other men, were the waters. When the collective sound started filling the air, he started explaining about eating.

The act of eating is a violence that causes what is living, in its many forms, to disappear. Whether grass, plants, trees, animals or human beings, the process is the same.

There is always a fire that devours and a substance that is devoured. This violence bringing misery and torment will one day be carried out by those who inflict it. Pouring milk into the fire- every morning, every evening- meant accepting that what appears disappears and that what has disappeared serves to give sustenance to something else, in the invisible. There are some people who have become skilled in detecting evil with supreme ease. Evil for them was already apparent ever since that moment when an axe first struck a tree or a hand uprooted a plant; a metaphysical evil, inherent in everything that is forced to destroy a part of the world in order to survive. Evil is therefore everywhere and in everything. This is why sacrifice is also everywhere, above all in mankind and hence in everything. In every act that consumes a part of the world, in every act that destroys. There is no neutral state, no state in which this doesn’t happen. Such a chain of events cannot change. Those who eat will be eaten. Those who slaughter will be slaughtered. Those who eat meat will themselves become meat.

Men always follow, it is the agni who conquers.

For several years there have been feverish attempts to unearth horse bones in Punjab and around regions. Region around Kurukshetra, the birth place of Bhagvad Gita – to prove that there innovation the horse was already to be found in those regions. For according to some all that is most ancient and memorable must necessarily grow on Indian soil.

Why did the ancients not build cities, or kingdoms, or empires? Asked Gana. Because they did not seek power, but rapture, said Neel. Every construction was temporary, including the fire altar. It was not a fixed object but a moving vehicle. Once the voyage was complete, the vehicle used to be destroyed. And hence the ancients never developed the idea of a temple. If such care was given to constructing a bird, it was to make it fly. To attain the light. They wanted nothing more, but also nothing less.

That they received their learnings from the sun. To know one must burn.

Also read: Life is only breath. Every other thing a distraction

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Illustration ‘The Ancient Life”(2017) by Narayan Tushar Kaudinya

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Hi, I am Narayan Kaudinya. And i welcome you on this journey, the Road to Nara ! I am an Ethnographer and a practicing Indologist. I did my masters in History and further learnt Sanskrit, Yoga and Nerve-therapy. At 24, pushing most academic sounding, office sitting works away, i felt compelled to know and understand the world and my country, Bharat/India. I travelled, and as it happened i took up teaching in Kashmir and further up in the remote villages of Baltistan in the foothills of Karakoram Ranges. For around three years and many states later there came a time when i felt that it was only while teaching i learnt how to laugh, to see, feel, breathe, love and cry -with children, and mostly resource-less parents in the harshest-freezing border conditions. I write, and work as a documentary photographer and Filmmaker, with numerous published, exhibited and some awarded stories. In my travels and life i have let nature lead me, the divine mother, and as a Yogin, my resolve here is to share my experiences and thoughts as honestly, and through them to blossom in everyone the power and possibility in pursuing your breath, that you seek your true nature with courage and curiosity. Here, on this road i will share my spirit, my love for nature, the elements of life that are us. And in doing so, i'll be happy to see you along.


  1. This writer is known for his love of nature, and as he wrote above “the elements of life that are us”, here, he wrote a philosophical treaty that is interesting but could be controversial.
    India – Empire Of The Spirit is over 10 thousand years old and the speculations of what went before are easy to understand as a quest for knowledge. Was this achieved?
    I leave the readers to decide. The illustration by the author is poignant and illuminating his
    thoughts, On the whole, this is a persuasive argument for being a vegetarian, essential to me
    because I am one already.


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  2. I am relieved by your explanation, Dear Narayan. I was puzzled for a moment about your state of mind. As it is, you will always have my support because of your immense talent and ability. It will take you to the highest literary position, not less but the Nobel Prize For Literature, of this I am sure.

    Joanna x


    • You make me smile. Thank you. My state of mind is balanced Joanna, and is always working towards carrying readers to their own untouched corners.

      I can only rejoice that you think so my dearest. Even i could not even imagine right now what you have been stating. But nonetheless. It is a gift from you i am keeping.


  3. I grew up in isolated settings where we watched how the wheel of life and death supported the ecosystem. This has me thinking of those days and the broader world. Wonderful writing. Thank you for sharing.


  4. You are more than welcome. I am most of the time right, especially about the writers as it is my profession! As I have 10 thousand books, all read by me, I can see the extra special talent, like yours! Just keep on writing without too many distractions.

    Joanna x


  5. Wow. I have never thought things in this way. But to think deep it makes sense. We all follow a cycle of nature to keep the balance right.
    It always so good to read your always open me to so many different perspective which I otherwise wouldn’t have been aware of.


  6. You have taken me on a mental journey to some different corners of my mind. Interesting! “Round like a circle in a spiral , like a wheel within a wheel.” Good writing can take the reader to many places. All of them good. I also loved your drawing! A


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    Hi Narayan

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  8. KK says

    This is a very interesting conversation with a tinge of philosophy. I enjoyed reading it. The contention that the act of eating is a violence may be controversial, but if plants are living beings as per science, eating even vegetables may be considered an act of violence. This is a debatable point. But thank you, Narayan ji for posting such a thought provoking piece.


    • Kaushal ji, thank you for writing on this essay as i knew myself while i was constructing it, to be little abstract.

      Yes, Kaushal ji, terming simple act of eating as violence certainly comes out to be controversial. I had only those examples of our ancient Rishes who had given up on eating while have gone deeper during their sadhna. Also eating being very much connected to sensual pleasure, i for once felt to put this point out to understand it myself. but without doubt it is very much debatable as you rightly pointed out.

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  9. Beautiful expression and is nicely penned. Thank you for sharing this extraordinary post. Know thyself within the inner silence.


  10. An interesting post, Narayan. Perhaps if we were more like the ancients, we would not be killing each other to gain power and control.


    • Dwight, to think of it now, there is no doubt that we were once ancients ourselves, that we are coming from only there. Hence this destruction, this apathy and indifference is inevitable or so I believe Dwight.

      I appreciate your valuable words dear Dwight. Thank you so much.

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