India, Letters to self, Yogic Studies
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The Paradox

Who is observing the observer? Are you in front of the camera or behind it ? Or are you it ?

Do you realize the change Changing?

We walked up to the oldest virgin man. The sevak of shiva sitting on a hill, under a bright summer sun. His skin had earned blocks of pentagon, shaped into numerous lines criss-crossing his whole body. Once wrinkles turned into scales, crafted like on a snake’s skin. For a moment when he stood, I moved and touched that skin. But it felt nothing like it instead it was soft as wool. We walked seven steps together and then he sat in the shadow, near few men who had come from the nearby village, singing.

He was humorous. He looked at Maharaj ji and told him that you look older than me! abhi bhi dum lagate ho? Do you still smoke Chillum? And started laughing at his own prank. But when he did, i could see through his mouth till his almost neck, bereft of any bone. wide, narrow, dry and turned grey. The whole passage looked free and unobstructed.

I eat only once he said, once in the whole day, three spoons of rice or some little porridge or sometimes only water, anything more and it gets stuck in my throat. And then i unnecessarily have to drink so much water, only to force those stuck morsels reach my stomach. I don’t like to speak much now, other wise i need to urinate most unnecessarily. He was the most beautiful being whom Maharaj took me to meet. Laughing out loud.

Today, I heard from Ma, he left in the early hours, while sleeping, when everybody else also slept, quietly, unknowingly- without disturbing even the winds. He was 108.

I still remember something that he told me as we were leaving that day. “It is not that Kali Yuga is deadly or bad. But the people who follow satya(satvic), who are truthful, helpful and empathetic towards others, Old yugas still reside with in them, with peace and prosperity. They need not worry.

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Photograph narxtara

Aum Shanti

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Hi, I am Narayan Kaudinya. And i welcome you on this journey, the Road to Nara ! I am an Ethnographer and a practicing Indologist. I did my masters in History and further learnt Sanskrit, Yoga and Nerve-therapy. At 24, pushing most academic sounding, office sitting works away, i felt compelled to know and understand the world and my country, Bharat/India. I travelled, and as it happened i took up teaching in Kashmir and further up in the remote villages of Baltistan in the foothills of Karakoram Ranges. For around three years and many states later there came a time when i felt that it was only while teaching i learnt how to laugh, to see, feel, breathe, love and cry -with children, and mostly resource-less parents in the harshest-freezing border conditions. I write, and work as a documentary photographer and Filmmaker, with numerous published, exhibited and some awarded stories. In my travels and life i have let nature lead me, the divine mother, and as a Yogin, my resolve here is to share my experiences and thoughts as honestly, and through them to blossom in everyone the power and possibility in pursuing your breath, that you seek your true nature with courage and curiosity. Here, on this road i will share my spirit, my love for nature, the elements of life that are us. And in doing so, i'll be happy to see you along.


  1. A different perspective ❤️ In the end, what did he mean by, “it is not kali yug that is bad, but the people.. “

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    • Hi, Singing Wolf, thank you for coming over.

      If you know the story, how Kaliyuga arrived, you will realise that it only resides in few selective places. He only meant to become a giving being than being a hoarder. To be compassionate and empathetic towards others.

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  2. Maya says

    Kali is the best of all Yugas, it is mentioned in Bhagavatam that liberation which was difficult to achieve by millions of ascetics in Satyuga, Dwapara and Treta can be attained in Kali with the single name of God with pure heart. Maharaj ji stated the facts.

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  3. This was one of the most sublime pieces I have read today. Love your narration and the layers of nuances tucked between the words. Thank you!

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  4. “without disturbing even the winds”…no words for this line, and sad to hear about his dismiss, 🌸🙏🌸

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  5. Your words are always sincere, never patronizing towards the mystical aspects of life. You write like a true poet, I want to reiterate that.

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  6. Lia says

    Tingles all through while reading this… that is rare. Wonderful writing. 💛


  7. Love all your posts and followed your blog for such future posts. I have also started blogging recently and would be happy if you could visit my blog. Looking forward to your feedback on my content and I hope to earn a new follower today.

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  8. dessertflower5 says

    A different level of perception and thought. Who is observing the observer…. The way you ended it with kali Yuga is not as bad as the people in it.

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  9. Thanks for sharing your ideas. I’d personally also like to state that video games have been at any time evolving. Modern tools and innovative developments have served create practical and interactive games. Most of these entertainment video games were not that sensible when the actual concept was first being tried out. Just like other kinds of technological innovation, video games way too have had to grow via many generations. This itself is testimony for the fast progression of video games.


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